Narcissism
My journey with Narcissistic Personality Disorder stated
One day when,
At my wits end,
Frustrated, lonely, standing by a river
The most angsty emo you could imagine,
I reached out to ChatGPT of all things
For answers
Controversial, I know, but I needed objective answers.
I knew if I told my therapist what was going on,
They would automatically take my side.
I needed to know honestly how bad it was.
So I opened up Chat and described the last incident in which
I made an honest attempt to connect to my Dad:
I sat next to him at his birthday and he spontaneously started
To recount to a table full of strangers
How I ruined his life
From that start of my birth
In chronological order
And what came back from Chat wasn't an explanation...
It was the full criteria of Narcissistic Personality Disorder
And line by line, it applying exactly how this objective perspective
So strongly believed that my dad was a narcissist
That it skipped the intro and went right into the meat of it.
That's when I spiraled.
For the next year,
All sorts of memories that I THOUGHT I understood -
Recontextualized.
They finally made sense.
I consumed every piece of media I could find related to
Narcissism -
YouTube, eBooks, Podcasts...
It was a blur
Because there were so many different thoughts...
Some of it made sense
Other parts didn't
But one thing was clear to me -
ALL of the media I consumed on narcissism was
Fear based
And it made me scared...
If you knew me socially during that time,
I apologize.
During that time,
Everyone was a narcissist in my eyes because
You never know who to trust.
Then things settled down.
Then it was time to get Scott about it -
Use that big brain of mine to figure out
What was true
And more importantly
What was not true.
Treatment of Narcissism:
Since that time, I've worked with people who
Were in narcissistic relationships
And have even had a handful of
Successfully recovered cases of
The Narcissist, themselves.
The real trick to treatment
And what Scott brings to the table
Is providing my clients a
Clear sense about what is
And what isn't
Without needless fear mongering.
If you're interested in breaking the cycles,
No matter on which side of the fence you sit,
Reach out to me and I can tell you if I can help
